sarcasm

Have you ever felt that you have a group, i mean a very happy, lively and pleasant but in a moment you realise  that you are not really joining this gaily group. physically you're in the group but your soul..hmmm feels like not laughing and enjoying with them. try to think what's the problem but don't know where to begin. i'm trying to be jubilant but all i know i was faking it. the people in this group are sure crazy if not i wouldn't call it gaily group. yeah you have a quite big number of people and each have their own joviality. their characteristic all are active and talkative. so i would say you'll not boring in this group.

Controvert from that, there's are something about these people that i'm not really can stand it nor like it. being immature, over reacting and way to farrr laughing. i mean you laugh for no reason and reason i think not practically makes me want to laugh.  i'm not saying that i don't like to LOL, yeahh.. it's very releasing and enjoyable, but you must have a reason to laugh right? or not you'll be label as 'crazy'. haha yes i always being called like that back then from my friends. ok back to the topic, sometimes i hate this group because it's very annoying... it feels like i want to get out whenever they are grouping and meet eah other. they always said to me "asal k xde mood ni?", "aan marah jek 1arini", " wei ko asal muke cm ngantok jek.." so that's the way i react whenever i meet them. i really can't get along with them... poor me. 

Ohhh! so that's the problem. hahaha! now i realise. ok thanks! hehe. deeply in emotional and sad and depressing. MAMA rindu... (ceit!)