feelling like crazzzyyy~

the moral of the story

cari la lubang dulu sbelum nak berak.

jgn nk berak baru nk cari lubang. haha

tu ayat mak aku..

well cite xmule lagi da moral story lak, pelik.

tp tu la, cuti 2mggu, mama da bebel2 kat umah asyik ngadap tenet jek

smpai die ckp, "ko ingat aku belikan laptop suh ko ngadap tenet jek, chatting jek ke? buat keje tu!" (smbil buat muke geram kat aku.tahap maximum la tu.)

haish..

apela nasib

but then, that just me, aku xkn agkat bontot slagi x last minit, nyawa2 ikan la..

duk umah on9 jek, tp aku ade la wat assignments guk.

aku fikir assignments yg aku wat kt umah tu da settle, w/pun aku ase cam sikit jek aku wat, tp memadai la kan..hehe

ok2 sebelum aku mluah kn perasaan yg xsudah2 kt umh tu, setibanye aku di matrik yg indah nie (ha! skema~)

mlm tu tros kumpul 1 kmpulan wat english. nk tacap2 lg tuk project english nie..sal article la graph la..

so bile da kmpul, aku mendapati yg spatutnye pie chart kene wat byk lg..sememangnye pie chart tu bahagian aku la..

urgh~!! mase tu aku pk, OTAK DIE!! FFF...

ok english poject nk anta ari esknye

dinamika anta esk gak (smemangnye aku xmule pape lgpun sal dinamika)

pengucapan awam yg akn brtanding ari rabu ( aku kene wakil praktikum)

agama ngn ayat hafazan ( yg sememangnye byk n pnjg.)

dlm ati aku "mati la aku kali nie..xtdo mlm la nie..gile ar~"

aku pun ngadu la kt dak group aku

ida pun same ngn aku..tp die ttp cool..liza pun sme..tp die da wat la ckit.syira jgn ckp la, xtau bile mase die lekang? hehe

aku nk wat pie chart pun nk kene analysis data lg..atleast 12 pie chart kene wat and aku wat 3 pie chart..gile nk siap kn mlmml nie!!?

aku kuatkn smngat n wat guk. tp dgn mnduka citanye aku wat and xdpt nk kuarkn idea..urgh..

aku kuat lg..

dlm mase yg sme, cik safritah kite tlh mminta ampun kpd cgu dinamika ktowg tuh tgguhkn tarikh pghantaran folio. so cgu pun baik la kn..die suh anto ari rabu..nasib.so beban kurg ckit..

arini aku siapkn la bi..

esknye, bi da siap, ok anta. 1assgnments done! 3 more to go~

ergh today aku siapkn dinamika, jasa baik mus (ketua group aku a.k.a abg polis) die kate "xpela ko buat jek ckit, lantak la".(die amat memahami aku cz aku kne pngucapan awam lg) T.T

nasib bdn dpt kwn yg memahami..

ok done!

skang tggal utk pngucapan awam. isi aku da cari tggl nk susun and nk praktis..

OMG! wat the hell nk suh aku brucap kt dpn org dgn bahasa baku! SAYA~ (mnyebut ngn bahasa baku ye)

otak die~! aku mane pernah formal nie..tau gelak jek n ssh nk serius..shit!

cmne la aku nk g..

peribahasa pun failed! aku nie bkn la A. SAMAD SAID pun..apala nasib bdn kene vote ngn rakan2 kelas kn..

dorg kate aku nie bagus berkata2 and kat kelas pun xpnah bhenti brckap..haha dorg wat lawak.

berserah~ cube sehabis baik! mntak tlg tok guru la ty..haha

pas pngucapan da siap, bersedia tuk agama lak!

kene siapkan rohani diri utk mngahafaz surah!

urkkk? otak da berkarat kot...

kene polish..

haha

tutor math,kmia and fizik mggu nie aku pnjam kwn la..hahha~ trpkse..

itu la yg mmbuatkn aku crazy pusing kepala tongkang pecah...

tu la xdgr nasihat mama..degil tol ko aan! jadi ank yg dgr kate la..haha

duduk

terasa nk tulis blog la pulak pas bace blog2 org.

ok 'click' aku tekan new post.sambil dgr lagu taylor swift.haha..(bru dwnload td)

aku tggu lame, refresh 2x baru dapat bukak neww pst nie..tu blum tggu kuar 1-1 lg..loading.'lampi tol tenet aku nie'.

mane xnye sent 659bps, received 0bps.bkn lmbat,xde signal lgsg..nasib..

ape lg aku pun agkat laptop aku ats bwh (knun dpt la sgnal) pusing latop smbil dudk akhirnye dpt guk bkak new post nie. and this is one of the reason aku mls nk bkak blog and post new entry.haha.

spertimane title post aku 'duduk'

haha..

mksud yg tersirat tu sbnrnye bosan la tu..

sbb tu aku duduk jek ngadap laptop.usha2 blog,fcebooking..

smlm aku xde keje sje jek tuka status from single to married kt facebook.(guess who?) haha

syamilla jd mgse a.k.a best fren aku

sorry la illa..

tp die accept pg td..org pun brtalu-talu cmment die..haha die femes..(ceh)

xpela xde keje pnye pasal wat la scndal.haha..

kul 10 pg ni aku dkejotkn dgn adik aku.

"an bgn buat air, lala suh"

ha?!! kejut aku juz tuk wat air? ape wat air pun xley sndri ka?

aku pun reply "ya allah, wat air pun suh aku?"

adik aku pun blah tnpe respon n aku pun...smbung tdo! haha

tp xlme 10.30, adk aku kjot lg. "an bgn mkn"

well kali nie aku bgn dgn baik..mkn punye psl..haha

msuk blik air wat2 yg ptt trun bwh..

mkn mee soup~ family aku msk (abah,mama,akak)

abg ipar aku ade kt umh skng nie..

da siap msk abg pnye abg ipar aku dtg..so mkn la sme..

selesai aktiviti bersma kuarga tuk arini..

haha

bpk aku bkak lak siaran tv sultan johor mangkat.innalillah..takziah.

sepatutnye sekolah arini cuti ganti raye cine.aku expect umh aku sunyi jek la aku sorg rini.

tp cuti cz bekabung sultan johor.

dppt sultan baru arini

mama ajk g jb.tp nth die tu..xgerak2 lg..haha

xpectation: xg jb pun arini.

so aku duduk la disini bilik aku yg trcinta nie ngadap laptop smbil tulis blog+facebooking yg akn aku tinggalkn esk tuk balik matrik..

ok kali nie wat 1st time aku time aku kne blk matrik

haish...eh! xley kene time..

ok balik matrik esk ngn sarah..

bye~

tu jek..hahah

duduk la...

very funy

there's one funny story tat i would laugh out loud.

well back then i have some issue with my friends

all my friends said tat all im always keep forgetting about them..

and they said tat they felt uneasy with my attitude (keep forgetting)

in addition they said im changed from before were im always texting them, talk with them and etc..

due tat im like crazy trying to resolve tis friendship problems..

it take yearssss to finally regain my trustworthy about this friendship..

but...here comes the funny part.

now, well i realised it from time to time tat, wat all my friends said back then just reflected to them back..

i mean they doing wat im doing long ago..

well im not sure if they are forgetting about me or not. but wat i felt right now seems like they are doing it right now..

for me it's very FUNNY MAN~~~ haha

i kept on texting them, call them... but i dunno?

seems there is no connection between us.. seems they dun care anymore..

well for me....now im announcing tat whatever happen i just dun care..

hahaha~ better i just take care of myself instead of being care or think about others..

i just dun care man.. for me now just make it simple..

do wat make you happy and dun think to much, just keep on going and ignore wat they say about you. just be yourself..

nothing's wrong when you live alone and just be alone rather than keep busying about others tat just a waste of time.

myb aku berkawan in the present time only..

myb tats wat all my friends do..so now its reflected at me.. myb..

thanx~

hahahahahahahaahahahaha

a funny story rite?

_never understand_

A.K.U
TIDAK
FAHAM
BETUL!!!!!!!!!!

christmas wish!

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL MY FRENS TAT ARE CELEBRATING IT
WAIT FOR THE SANTA CLAUS GIVE U ALL A PRESENT IF U R KIND TIS YEAR..
HAHA
BYE~

PRINSIP aku!

i hate people tat judge me by the way i appear!

i hate people tat said aku berkire!

and the most thing tat i hate the most n most n ever hate tat is when people talking about me behind me!

3 things above are the most i hate they do to me and said to me.

tats my principal!

i don't tolerance with people like tis..

they can be my fren and also i can be the nicest frens to them..

but once they do the 3things..

they will knw.. my perception at them will change..

n for people said aku berkire.. F**K man!

aku berkire? wat the hell!

aku bukan jenis org yg brkire! kalau aku ade duit aku ley bg jek! aku xpernah brkire..

ape yg aku wat, pe aku bg aku wat dgn ikhlas..

pastu ape korg balas? ckp aku brkire..xpndang lgsg ape aku da buat kt korg? pk kn la betul2 klo nk ckp aku brkire..

pk kn la btl2 ape aku da wat kt korg sblm ckp aku bkn2..

aku xkn brkire..klo ak xde duit xkn aku nk guk pnuh kn prmintaan korg..

aku nie bkn la ank jutawan yg ade duit brjuta2 and aku bkn la ank raja yg ade harta keturunan..

so jgn la demand n mntak bende yg mlmpau..pk2 kn la..klo aku xley nk bg pk la prasaan aku..

xkn duit hasil titik peluh mak aku nk abeh kt korg semata2..beh bek mak aku bela korg kn?

mk aku bg duit kt aku tuk aku pkai..ade batas la man...klo akblnje kt korg bia la aku ikhlas n mmpu. tp stahu aku spnjg ngn brkwn ngn kwn2 aku, aku xpnah brkire ckit pun..

plus my things is my things! it is mine man! not your's!

so dun make an order to me like the things is your's! i hate!

ade batas la beb klo nk pakai skali pun kan..

AKU BOLEH JADI BRKIRE KLO KORG SEMUA NAK! OK...

but im not going to be it..

pk la perasaan aku n jgn ckp ikut suke k..

im not try to be offensive to all my frens but im just being defensive..

sorry pada sesiapa yg terasa..harap brubah perception korg kt aku k..

*adios

FLASHBACK...

benda yg dah lepas..
yg da belalu..
yg da da jd kenangan..
yg da jd pngajaran..

kini...
dtg kembali..
muncul kmbali..
ingat kmbali..
n berlaku lg skali..

ape yg aku ckp nie adlh ape yg berlaku mse lpas dlm hidup aku sme ade manis atau pahit dtg kmbali. (but mostly pahit la)
1. eyfa
2. ed ngn fizan
3. n infection of my tlinge.( fuh piyauuuu! sakit oooo)
smua dtg kmbali..
mslh2 ini mngingatkn aku kmbali hal yg da belalu yg byk mngajar aku tuk lbey dewasa n berfikir ngn betul n matang..
aku cbe tuk mls fikirkn hal nie..
aku skng fikir scara rasional..
aku xbiakn prasaan aku mngawal aku..
aku brfikir scara matang..
aku ptut hadapi mslah ini n jelaskn ape yg spatutnye aku wat kt smua org..
aku nk pasti kn ape yg blaku lps xkn brulang lg..
tats y aku mngambil lgkah yg trbaik tuk wat kputusan n gtau kt dorg..
aku plih jln yg senang n simple n xmnyakitkn ati aku..
fullstop.

hah! for my ears! dtg kembali sakit! time f4 dlu aku pnah kene skali guk smpai kne ptong tinge ckit..
but then kne balik skng nie..
sakit giler oooo...adui..
nk wat appointment ngn pakar tau2 jek la krajaan..
tggu cm nk mati..
huu..
i live with painkiller rite now..
hahah..

bye2